F. R. I. E. N. D. S

Who are they? Do I have any? If so, how many? Now that I am leaving this shithole (read IIT-M), this question has been bothering me for quite some time now and today, I have somehow managed to conjure up enough enthu to walk to the Physics DCF, single handedly taking on this scorching hot Madras sun, to write this blog.

Who is a friend? If someone is your friend, the best definition that I could come up with is that you will miss him in his absence. Is this a necessary or/and sufficient condition. Will he also miss you if you left him? As understand it, friendship is mutual, so he too should miss you if you think he is your friend.

In my case, I haven't missed anybody much. I have moved on and continued with my life. Does it mean that I have no friends? Will I miss someone in the future? On the other hand, if you think of a friend as someone whose company you enjoy, I have too many friends. Is it true?

The second definition is less likely to be precise because I know people whose company I enjoy thoroughly, but am sure that they can't be my friends (based on events I choose to keep to myself)

One might argue that the definition of friend is a matter of choice and that it doesn't really matter. But surprisingly it does in this case. The fact that I have many friends makes me feel happy. At the same time, if I told you that you didnt have any, I am sure that you will feel really bad about it. In any case, I want to know how happy I am entitled to feel.

Now that you are reading this... Am I your friend? Do you think you are mine? Will you miss me once I leave IIT-M? Do you think I will miss you too? I just want to think about these questions. In the time to come (i.e next few months/years) the answers to these questions will be clear ( going by my definition).

If you can come up with another way of defining it, please let me know.

All this crap is surely a fallout of my final sem at IIT-M. It has been surely one of the weirdest. I have felt more 'trippy', lonely and sad than ever before. I am such a short tempered, senti and rude chap thesedays that I tend to doubt if it was the same JK who entered this insti 4 years ago. I dont know who is to be blamed. Insti? my 'Friends'? or should I blame myself?

I dont know if I will miss anybody during the hols. It will be interesting, in the least. I am looking forward to it and starting off again. I have grown tired of the acads and politics in the insti, night-outs, 'no-comp-now-pack's, unproductive existence etc and I cant take them anymore. I even feel sometimes that I will be happy leaving this place. But the fact that I might miss my buddies makes me think again. Lets see how it goes...

Why did I start blogging? Why now?

5 things that could have been the reason but aren't:

1. I was busy and haven't had the time to indulge in writing.
2. I dont have a computer.
3. I had nothing to say or write about.
4. I hate IIT-Madras as an educational institution, particularly its Meta department.
5. Two of my friends, namely Arun and Aavi have recently started blogging and I wanted to join the club.

The truth:

1. I wanted to rediscover my lost writing skills.
2. My BTech is finally over. Now that I have been mutilated beyond recognition by this wretched institution called IIT-Madras, I wanted to change and start afresh.
   
3. I have things to say and points to be clarified with readers like you. I thus had to broadcast these opinions of mine to the world and this was the obvious thing to do.
4. I have realized that I will be extremely jobless in the next few months and that this is a great way to kill time.
5. I have a sudden urge for writing. Dont ask me why. I dont know myself.